Lost Files: Petty Theft

I recently found an old memo that I wrote in my kindle that I thought I’d share with you all. It’s about an experience that I had in June 2016 testing my integrity and well, my identity in Christ, to be honest. Though some aspects of this little note may seem too silly to mention, I really hope it ministers to someone struggling with integrity. Integrity is one of the many marks of a child of God, and it’s such a beautiful root of trust that intertwines with the motivations of our heart.

I can’t remember if I actually published this note in my book, Before You Soar. It may be a “lost file” or an excerpt. Either way, I’ll just keep it rough and copy and paste it below “as is”, and hope you’re blessed and encouraged.

A testimony of faith.
The Lord’s refinement.
Embracing the process.
In the valley.
In the fire.
Through the storm.
New creation.

Deliverance.

Job. Loss of friends.

June 11, 2016 – morning

I understand how or why people who have little or none steal to meet their need. I’ve been tested to justify breaking of the 8th commandment on several occasions during this season, especially since I’ve been living in this house unfairly compensated. I’m talking petty thefts like a few q-tips and little body wash to just stay clean in this heat. Coincidentally it’s the same brand I use. Satan is good at what he does. My soap is in a container broken into little pieces and I dare not throw it away. I used a few q-tips and felt convicted, so recently I purchased some to refill their package before I move out. They’ll never know, but me and God will always. I can’t be trusted with much if I’m unfaithful with little. If “it’s just a q-tip”, then I just need to leave it alone. It doesn’t belong to me and it isn’t part of my living arrangement agreement. She is to provide food only, and I’m grateful she finally stepped up to the plate on that one. I don’t want to do to her what she was doing to me.

©2018 • Chan’tel Nikole Grayson

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Dear #America,

Look here, you rich people: Weep and groan with anguish because of all the terrible troubles ahead of you. Your wealth is rotting away, and your fine clothes are moth-eaten rags. Your gold and silver are corroded. The very wealth you were counting on will eat away your flesh like fire. This corroded treasure you have hoarded will testify against you on the day of judgment. For listen! Hear the cries of the field workers whom you have cheated of their pay. The cries of those who harvest your fields have reached the ears of the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. You have spent your years on earth in luxury, satisfying your every desire. You have fattened yourselves for the day of slaughter. You have condemned and killed innocent people, who do not resist you.

– James 5:1-6 (NLT)

4 cents & counting… #Gratefulness #Overflow

We Americans often fail to realize, and simply take for granted the fact that we have more than enough. We as people, really. If you are an American (born and raised in America), then you are rich in more ways than one. If you’ve ever traveled to another country, you will know. You will see. And, you may even be told. This indeed is a superficial country, and I would like to say that I am in no way shape, or, form a representation at the slightest of that, but I’m sure that I am.

Today I bought lunch. I normally take my lunch to work, but today I ate out because I didn’t have time to pack anything. You know how it goes, I didn’t really wanna spend money (been spending a lot lately argh) but Chan’tel skipping a meal is not an option. Chan’tel skipping a snack is not an option haha. While trying to decide what to get, I seen Chili’s and remembered my supervisor had given me a gift card to Chili’s last week as a little reward for some top notch customer service. Nice, right? Indeed grateful for the little things. The Lord definitely rewards his people when we work for Him. He appoints people to bless us. People who have no idea why. Ha, I think he even appoints people to like us! People who have no idea why.

So I placed my to-go order at Chili’s, paid with my gift card and the cashier informed me that I had $.04 left as a balance. I chuckled to myself and thought…what am I gonna do with that? Then I thought (not immediately) just a second ago (hence the blog – I’m a reflector if you haven’t learned by now)…I thought wow Lord, check you out! More than enough. Jehovah Jireh at his finest. It’s such a blessing to be taken care of. It was like He was like “See, Princess?…I gotchu!” and he soooo does.

I know 4 cents isn’t a lot here, but it is in another country, and nonetheless a blessing to have more than enough in any form. When the Lord blesses me with an income with some extra zeros on the end shoot, you may be jumping up and down with a grateful heart to be given the opportunity to be a recipient of 4% LOL.

I had a Pastor that once said when you need a blessing from the Lord, sow a seed in the form of the blessing you desire [and go hard or go home].

[Remember] this: he who sows sparingly and grudgingly will also reap sparingly and grudgingly, and he who sows generously [that blessings may come to someone] will also reap generously and with blessings. – 2 Corinth. 9:6

Give it to get it, whatever it is, however scary it is. When the Lord says something, believe Him.
I so believe and have found that giving principle to be true. Of course, like all matters, the involvement of the heart is crucial and can change whether or not you get that beautiful smile from God. Don’t be playin’ games, or as my lover would say, “I don’t want no mess” lol.

I personally use a Jewish tithing system (haven’t always). Was excited for the knowledge of it when I found out about it and it indeed has been powerful, and I’m blessed in it. Do you. Do what you can, and don’t doubt that you can. Test the Lord in it. He challenges you. (Malachi 3:10).

There’s nothing wrong with wanting more, and the Lord wants us to have more. So, exercising my faith I’ll boldly say I dunno about ya’ll, but I’m 4 cents & counting… 🙂