The other morning I woke up and got ready for work as usual. Went and warmed up Ladybug and all. Then I remembered…I don’t work at 7 today, I switched with my co-worker! I work at 8.
I was up. Up, dressed, and ready to go! That’s on the outside. On the inside…I was touched. I was touched that the Lord was holding true to his promises and indeed drawing near to me as I had to Him. He was expressing His desire to spend some time with me, and supplying me with the time I needed leading to the choice to do so (He always gives us one). This was an opportunity that I refused to miss. This was an opportunity that I was glad to accept.
Come close to God and He will come close to you. [Recognize that you are] sinners, get your soiled hands clean; [realize that you have been disloyal] wavering individuals with divided interests, and purify your hearts [of your spiritual adultery]. – James 4:8 (Amplified)
Sometimes we get so busy — And I must admit…Ok, prepare for venting. *sigh*…
Between work/overtime, the gym, being boo’d up, and trying to have something of a life between sleep, my days seems to end before they begin (exaggeration) & my weekends come and go like the last gummy bear in the bag that you ate but coulda sworn “Didn’t I have on 1 left??” Dag!
Lately It’s been required of me to be flexible (o_O) and I’m actually surprising myself at how well I’m rolling with it. Shoot, I like to know what’s going on, I like to know why it’s going on, and, if it will possibly be going on again without notice so that I can prepare for it…because that was not cool that I wasn’t able to prepare for that one time it went on without notice…ha, you get me.
The thing is, considering alll of that I know about myself. I’m actually sucking it up. Still low-key wanting it to end, but sucking it up nonetheless. To be honest, I don’t think it’s gonna end (maybe that’s why I’m sucking it up). I think I’m just going to adjust to this new way of life and get it down packed. I figure this — I am in preparation for something that will require these skills, and I am grateful for this training. I’m realizing that I will be walking by faith and not by sight for the rest of my life. Living moment by moment for the glory of God.
I do need a vacation tho. A relaxing getaway. I’ll get one. But right now, I know that God is answering my prayers. I’m just simply having to adjust to all that I’ve prayed for. I trust Him. So I know that He’s working things out for my good. I also have loved ones to reel me back in when everything I’ve written in this blog that communicates that I have it together goes out the window. HA..they know, I know…I don’t. I’m growing just like you. I’m grateful.
I just miss my time not being as divided and being able to cuddle with the Lord. Clearly He sees that the timing is fit for me to get creative and find ways that we can still get our cuddle on in the midst of all of the other blessings I seem to be “juggling” at the moment. Knowing that is encouraging and I’m determined to iron out the kinks. I love Him so much. Without Him, there’s no me.
So, with much help, I’m gonna give these solutions a shot:
Wake up earlier some days
Go to the Bookstore (or anywhere quiet)
Get a hotel room maybe once a month or so
We’ll see how it goes. Your suggestions are welcome as well. Meet me in your knees saints. Love you 🙂