#Wanted

Good morning lovas 🙂

You know what the beauty in yesterday and today is throughout this transition?  (Ha, I say throughout like I’m months in or something – It really did began before the actual move though).  Anyway, the beauty —  other than the fact that I’m making great progress  and truly feel the prayers of people lifting me up (thank you If you are one), I’m wanted. That is the great blessing that I’m choosing to recognize today.

I have to be me, so that If you don’t love me, I’ll agree.

Although I was in a funk about being here, everyone around me has welcomed me back into their lives with open arms and seriously could not wait until I returned.  Now, I do know my worth, but honestly, a part of me can not quite put my finger on why or what I’ve done exactly (other than being me) to make them love me so much, but I appreciate it, love them back, and had to stop and say thank you Lord that I am wanted.  What did I say or do before I left? Hmm.  I may not be wanted everywhere or by everyone I’d like to be wanted by, or even in the way that I desire to be wanted, but I am wanted here, and here is where I am called to be for such a time as this.  I had to repent ya know, although I have a right to feel what I feel…I was a  little snippy with God and who am I to question my creator?  He was like hold up, wait a minute little girl lol…feel how you feel but don’t.get.cra-zy! I got this just like I had that.  Did we forget already? ha.

This transition could definitely be worse. It’s for my good.

I heard and was reminded last night that there’s no way that we can have a genuine appreciation for a good day without having some bad ones.  I’m sure it seems like I never have a bad day.  Key word: seems.  But I most certainly do, I’m just generally optimistic and usually the person in my relationships who listens and encourages people through their bad days which somehow in the midst works in my favor and ends up encouraging myself.  I also have the most amazing bff who is absolutely excellent at reading me – such a beautifully honest friend, prayer partner, checker (she calls it how she sees it); She is the epitome of iron that sharpens iron.  She’s got plenty of years under her belt though so I really can’t compare anyone to her Gold Member status (ha).  I keep telling her she needs to write a manual for my husband-to-be, fa real! That would probably be the best wedding gift ever. Well, If he reads it lol.

The good in today, this present time, was that there was bad in yesterday, a past time, that led me to gratitude.  The good in today, and hopefully tomorrow, a future time, is that I’m loved and I’m wanted.  So, like many days I pray, Lord, If I don’t get anything else accomplished today, help me to love and still, I will have accomplished much.

It Is Well.

Good morning loves!

This is the day the Lord has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it. – Psalm 118:24

So lately I’ve been reflecting (surprise, surprise, surprise! – in my Gomer Pyle voice) and really just thankful and well, happy. I can honestly say that I am the happiest that I have ever been. It is a miracle, really. If you only knew! I was talking about this with my best friend the other day and we are just totally amazed. She was sharing how she threw away a picture of me from a while back because it wasn’t a good memory. When the photo was taken I was in a bad place. Not at my worst quite yet, but in a bad season in my life. As we were talking, I could visualize God smiling at His children boasting about His greatness. I praise God that “It is well” and I now have pictures that show that.

      Hallelujah! I worship you, Oh God for all you do! You are magnificent in all of Your ways. You’re an awesome wonder and in You forever will I put my trust for You are a faithful and just God…Hallelujah! If You choose to do no more You honestly and truly have done enough. You are a healer and deliverer. I thank You for making me whole…I thank You for making me new, I thank You for seeing about me and not forgetting Lord *tears*…

Thank You so much for not forgetting about me.

I hit a rough patch where I had a little internal tug of war (and I’m not done hitting them ha) that is difficult for me to explain, but I came out victorious thanks to prayer (if you prayed, thank you!). I had some decisions I needed to make, I had to stop pouting, lay my will down (which I thought I had), and choose to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit and trust that God knows what He’s doing and that even when some things don’t make sense, they do to Him. A lot of great things are going on and in the works for my life now…that quickly. When we choose His way, we open up the door to blessing. Blessing always follows obedience. While I’m happy about the opportunities, people, and wonderful things going on that make me smile, I do not attribute this joy to anyone except The One who is worthy…My God the Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit. But I do thank you all who have allowed yourselves to be used to bless my life in all sorts of way that you may be unaware of. I feel, pure, raw, unadulterated love and joy that only cometh from the Lord. I’m grateful that the Lord is patient, loving, and not a respecter of persons because I certainly fall short and require much grace at times.

I encourage you today. I encourage me today. Whatever you’re going through, big or small…do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. – Matthew 6:34 May the Lord help us with today. Today is still the day that the Lord has made and when you choose to rejoice in it despite whatever is going on in heart, mind, and in the natural. Despite however people are acting around you…you excel in strength. You wage spiritual war even when you feel defeated. You win.

Be Encouraged. Have a blessed day!