I’ve been comparing myself to Paul instead of you
And it’s amazing what Acts will help you do
Walking forward with my head held high
Drinking courage as I scroll pass
Bye…post.
Sorry, not sorry
You’re no longer welcome to my eyes
I can’t let them get lazy or God-forbid
Hypnotized
To gouge or not to gouge?
I’ll set a boundary for you instead
It’s worth it. I’m worth it.
The sin will only leave me dead
Paul had a thorn like me
And it kept him on the low
He was posted up everywhere
But never had a formal show
His fruit told his story
My fruit tell mine too
So if you’re ever scrolling and don’t see me…
No worries.
I’m good luv.
I’m serving.
I’m new.
Double tap, no more likes
Finally, are we free?
Remove the scale
Stop weighing him!
and her!
and them!
and me!
I’ll see you when I see you
Won’t miss you when I don’t
But every now and then
I’ll stalk your stories
Hmm…or maybe I won’t
This affair has ended Those compliments you can keep ‘Cause then I’ll have to accept your criticism
And I ain’t lettin’ you sow that deep…
“For The Lord takes pleasure in his people; he adorns the humble with salvation.” – Psalm 149:4
I was maybe 10 years old when the teaching of my parents transformed into truth for me. “I got saved”, or accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and professed that I have come to believe in Him. I believe He was who the bible said He was and that because He is, I am. Baptism quickly followed, and communion became a sanctified practice. Today, the more I grow in the Lord, the more profound his revelations are (and I realize I’ve known nothing lol), and the more I come to realize that salvation isn’t a one time thing. I don’t know about you, but I want more of Him, I want to be made whole, I want to be healed, I want to be right in His sight, I want Him to look at me and not help but crack a smile and shake his head like, “That’s my girl!”. I want to be faithful unto Him.
Salvation in my life is on repeat. Every single time I experience God’s love through His ever so sufficient grace, boom…I’m saved yet, again! Every single time I repent, boom, there goes my favorite jam! (ha!) Every single time he corrects, chastens, and loves me, BOOM! It’s easier to love someone who in your eyes doesn’t deserve it when you think about how God doesn’t withhold a drop of his love for you. There’s nothing that we could do or not do to make him stop. Gosh, that’s amazing! Hellooo..is this mic on? lol
My heart is full of gratitude. I never knew there was a love like this before. I can honestly say that I know, that I know, that I know, that Jesus’ blood was shed for ME. I know, that I know, that I know, that Jesus is mine. I am here for His delight and find delight in that truth! What an honor to be called His. What an honor to work for Him. What an honor to perform on a daily basis, worshipping in all we do. What an honor!
“My beloved is mine, and I am His…” – Song of Songs 2:16
I heard this beautiful song at church last week and my spirit can’t stop singing and dancing to it. I’ve been singing it in the shower, the hallways, the car, you name it. I thought I’d share it with you today. Have a fabulous weekend enjoying Him!
“And he said to them, ‘Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation.'” – Mark 16:15 (ESV)
I recently became a notary public for the State of California (Woot! Woot!). In a nut shell, what we do is legally serve the public (without offering legal advice), but mostly by signing and stamping documents with an official seal that pretty much makes them legit with the state to be used in court, or life, or whatever. That’s the “Nu” version.
Ever since I found out that a “commission” is what I was to receive from the Secretary of State before I could perform notarial duties, I was intrigued by the word. I looked it up and laughed. It was like an inside joke between God and I.
I liked these below:
com·mis·sion
kəˈmiSHən/
noun
an instruction, command, or duty given to a person or group of people.
a group of people officially charged with a particular function.
verb
give an order for or authorize the production of (something such as a building, piece of equipment, or work of art).
bring (something newly produced, such as a factory or machine) into working condition.
I realized that this commission to serve the public in the natural was yes, something ordained by the State of California, but my greatest commission and high calling to go out and proclaim the gospel and spread the love of Christ in this hurting and dying world is far more valuable. I am grateful for the God-given revelation in this parallel and for the opportunity to serve Him in serving you, His people. That, my friends is our greatest commission and we can expect a great reward in Heaven. I don’t take my birth lightly, nor more duty following. I heard Dr. Tim Storey say once that, “You’re a big deal” and I agree. God does so much, and allows us as individual believers to go through so much…for just one sometimes. What an honor to serve you, to teach you…what an honor to love you and prepare you (and me) for the Kingdom!
16 For if I preach the gospel, that gives me no ground for boasting. For necessity is laid upon me. Woe to me if I do not preach the gospel! 17 For if I do this of my own will, I have a reward, but if not of my own will, I am still entrusted with a stewardship. 18 What then is my reward? That in my preaching I may present the gospel free of charge, so as not to make full use of my right in the gospel.
19 For though I am free from all, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win more of them.
As I prepare for my leave, a few key words have been swarming around and ringing in my ear. I just had to look them up! None of them mean goodbye, but mostly, “See you later”, “‘Til next time”, or “Chow for now”. You get my drift. These two have really stuck out in memory.
fare·well/ˌfe(ə)rˈwel/ noun
(1) an acknowledgement or expression of goodwill at parting.
(2) the act of departing politely.
After seeing this definition I had to look up depart and I must say…I love it and I agree.
de·part/ diˈpärt/ verb
(1) Leave, typically in order to start a journey.
(2) Deviate from (an accepted, prescribed, or traditional course of action).
I went to brunch with a friend this weekend and she gave me a new “journey” pandora charm to add to my bracelet. How thoughtful and appropriate! I loved it. She also gave me a card in which she wrote a lovely quote that I appreciate. It read…
“Don’t be dismayed at good-byes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again after a moment or lifetime is certain for those who are friends.” – Robert Bach
Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. – Isaiah 41:10
I’m not gonna lie, I am indeed a bit sad. But both this quote and scripture is encouraging. Even through this bit of sadness that I feel…I know better than to make decisions based on how I feel, and I haven’t. I trust God that this feeling is very temporary and I am positive that it will not be regretted. You see, the choices we make in life (big and small) are so important and have an affect on individuals that we haven’t even encountered yet. How selfish of us to submit unto the Lord, say use me and then pout in the corner with our arms yelling “No!”. Moments like this can make us or break us. I’m willing to be broken to make it.
Sing praise to the Lord, you saints of His, And give thanks at the remembrance of His holy name. For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for life; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning. Now in my prosperity I said, “I shall never be moved.”
– Psalm 30: 4-6
I read somewhere that morning is whenever you wake up. I wish I could say I have fully awaken, but truthfully I have not. My feet are dragging lol. Still moving forward though (my mom would be proud). The bible, God’s word, my sword, the truth — that is there even when I’m not, and since I believe it, each day, with each passing day, I will enter greater rest and peace in The Most High, truly letting go, letting God, and reaping from it…and wake up and experience joy in the morning! 🙂 It’s just a matter of time. Keep me in your prayers.
These songs have been encouraging me through yet another transition on my journey. Speaking fo my journey, I’m glad you’re here. Enjoy 🙂
