Under Construction #Hiatus

 

When things are under construction, it’s sometimes hard to picture the finished product and you have to constantly remind yourself of the vision and re-visit the blueprints.  That’s where I am.  Building, revisiting, building, dusting of my safety glasses, building some more…you get my drift.  As you know, I’ve been experiencing and going through a lot in a short amount of time (relationally, emotionally, and spiritually).  It’s crazy yo!  It’s all coming at me at once and seemingly out of nowhere.  A jack-in-a-box effect.  I’m tired in many areas and of many things.  I just need to rest…let go, and let God.  And blogging may not be the best option this round.

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. [I will ease and relieve and refresh your souls.] Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart, and you will find rest (relief and ease and refreshment and recreation and blessed quiet) for your souls. For My yoke is wholesome (useful, good—not harsh, hard, sharp, or pressing, but comfortable, gracious, and pleasant), and My burden is light and easy to be borne. – Matt. 11:28-30

That being said, I’m taking a break. Gone fishing.  Nu is under construction.  This is good.  If you follow and support, please keep following and supporting.  If you pray, pretty please keep praying and stay tuned for what’s next whenever it’s next.  Love you!

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Hell No! #Respect #Boldness #Profanity

It’s nearly 4:45 p.m. (PST) and I’m waiting for my car to ship between the hours of 1-4 p.m. …ha! I know -__-

Any way…

I just popped in to tell you that I’m surprising myself lately.  I’m bolder, more assertive.  It’s like it was always in me but something about this move is making it finally rise to the surface.  I can dig it.  I can dig it, forever.  Let me give you an example…

The other day I asked to borrow my mom’s car…she let me and as I was heading out the door and saying “see ya later” to everyone, my dad jokingly asked, “Well, aren’t you gonna ask me if you can go somewhere?” I laughed and jokingly belted out a “Hell No!”.  Hahahaha…I’m laughing all over again as I re-tell the story.   It’s funny for a couple of reasons.  1) It was awkwardly uncalled for (I ended up telling a story afterwards in attempt to make it less awkward before heading out LOL..ay yi yi) and 2) Because if you know me, I’m not really one to curse and so when I do it’s usually hilarious or shocking…I’d have to categorize this as weird.

The thing is, I know, and someone else in the room could have very well recognized that that statement came from somewhere deep within.  I wasn’t trying to be disrespectful (and they know me well enough to know that), but…it kinda was.  I don’t care how old I get, when my dad or any elder asks me something, I do not plan on responding “Hell No!” lol.  Nonetheless, I am indeed grateful for that moment.  It feels good to be me.  It feels good to say no, and well, “Hell No!” It weaseled in and set a tone like no other.  I am really feelin’ this gift of holy boldness and I’m certain that I’m gonna need this me for the path that I’m on. Give me a couple of months, and I’ll have it all balanced and under control.

Continue to lift me up!  Until then, I might just yell “Hell No!” to a checker asking me if I’d like paper or plastic simply because I can and don’t want either one.  Oh wait, they only ask that in Virginia :(..waaah!

Just kidding 🙂 (about the crying part)

 

It Is Well.

Good morning loves!

This is the day the Lord has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it. – Psalm 118:24

So lately I’ve been reflecting (surprise, surprise, surprise! – in my Gomer Pyle voice) and really just thankful and well, happy. I can honestly say that I am the happiest that I have ever been. It is a miracle, really. If you only knew! I was talking about this with my best friend the other day and we are just totally amazed. She was sharing how she threw away a picture of me from a while back because it wasn’t a good memory. When the photo was taken I was in a bad place. Not at my worst quite yet, but in a bad season in my life. As we were talking, I could visualize God smiling at His children boasting about His greatness. I praise God that “It is well” and I now have pictures that show that.

      Hallelujah! I worship you, Oh God for all you do! You are magnificent in all of Your ways. You’re an awesome wonder and in You forever will I put my trust for You are a faithful and just God…Hallelujah! If You choose to do no more You honestly and truly have done enough. You are a healer and deliverer. I thank You for making me whole…I thank You for making me new, I thank You for seeing about me and not forgetting Lord *tears*…

Thank You so much for not forgetting about me.

I hit a rough patch where I had a little internal tug of war (and I’m not done hitting them ha) that is difficult for me to explain, but I came out victorious thanks to prayer (if you prayed, thank you!). I had some decisions I needed to make, I had to stop pouting, lay my will down (which I thought I had), and choose to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit and trust that God knows what He’s doing and that even when some things don’t make sense, they do to Him. A lot of great things are going on and in the works for my life now…that quickly. When we choose His way, we open up the door to blessing. Blessing always follows obedience. While I’m happy about the opportunities, people, and wonderful things going on that make me smile, I do not attribute this joy to anyone except The One who is worthy…My God the Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit. But I do thank you all who have allowed yourselves to be used to bless my life in all sorts of way that you may be unaware of. I feel, pure, raw, unadulterated love and joy that only cometh from the Lord. I’m grateful that the Lord is patient, loving, and not a respecter of persons because I certainly fall short and require much grace at times.

I encourage you today. I encourage me today. Whatever you’re going through, big or small…do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. – Matthew 6:34 May the Lord help us with today. Today is still the day that the Lord has made and when you choose to rejoice in it despite whatever is going on in heart, mind, and in the natural. Despite however people are acting around you…you excel in strength. You wage spiritual war even when you feel defeated. You win.

Be Encouraged. Have a blessed day!