As I lay here in bed at my grandparents house I feel this great sense of peace and gratefulness. I recall the Lord’s promise to me that no matter where I go, “I’ll always have a place”. It’s true. No matter where life takes me or how the Lord elevates me, I can always come home to a familiar place, or familiar people that truly know me and love me for me; my family. (The theme song to “Cheers” just started playing in my head). My best friend would probably be making fun of how “old” I am right about now lol. Any way…
I remember watching one of Oprah’s episodes of next chapter featuring the fine Mr. Curtis/50 Cent (ha). He was saying that whenever he comes home and visits his grandma, he’s just Curtis and only to the rest of the world is he this big shot. He still rubs her feet and paints her toenails and everything. He doesn’t drink out of any fancy cups or sleep in any fancy bed with 5,000 thread count sheets. Nope, cuz he’s home.
When I first moved back West and was in funky adjust mode (remember?), my mom hugged me and said “This will always be your home”. I get it, I love it, and I’m finally grateful for it and a bit embarrassed that I wasn’t before. Home is safe. A time to rest, restore, and just be.
I don’t know what’s next or where’s next ha, but I feel it coming in my spirit and so I’m just embracing this time at all of my places with my lifers – individuals that I have allowed and hence chosen to remain in my life forever.
Not once has my coming in or going out not been blessed. The Lord is faithful. He’s always granted me the necessary quality time and/or conversations with people before launching me to the next destination. I’ve never ever left thinking “aww man…” or feeling like “If only I had the chance to…”. Nope, His timing is perfect.
I’m crying because I’ve felt this before. I’ve experienced this before. I know what’s happening. This will soon be a much cherished moment, again. Glory be to God for having a plan. And thank you wisdom for teaching me how to stick to it despite my fleshly desires.
What do ya know, I’ve had my own place all along. I have learned that it is not until the moment of realization of whatever that needs to realized, that it actually exists. Everything up until that point is just in the atmosphere. Not until you grasp the dangling truth (because it is there) is it true for you. And, when it is, no one can steal it. I’m so grateful for God’s timing and faithfulness.
So, all that being said, it feels sooo good to be home and it always will everytime I return. I can honestly say I’m ready for my next chapter. Le’go!