As you may or may not know, today, well really yesterday, was my 25th birthday. Yay!! 😀
I’m celebrating in DC this weekend but today I did exactly what I wanted to do…Not a darn thing! I know, I know, I turned 25 for goodness sakes and I’m doing nothing?! Yup, cuz It’s my birthday. No but really, I probably would have if I wasn’t so pooped. Came home from my west coast visit mid-week and from jet lag, returning to work, and then working overtime, all a sista wanted to do on her birthday was take a bubble bath ya feel me?
That leads me to the topic of my blog…
As I was relaxing in my bath I began to sing this song, “I Love You Lord”. This was probably my millionth time singing it. I used to hear my mom singing it around the house (which is probably why I do the same). It’s comforting. But anywho…
I tend to sing it when I lack the words to pinpoint exactly what I’m feeling inside. I just sing and trust that Lord can decipher (and he always does).
At that very moment the Lord brought back to my memory me; crying, bruised, and heartbroken but still forcing myself to sing this song and praise the Lord for even though the situation is bad, HE IS GOOD. In between tears and sobs the lyrics weren’t clear, but he understood even the unspoken words. I think it was probably much sweeter pushed out of a broken heart. Loving through the pain. It was encouraging. It was comforting. Take a listen, please…
Today I realized that I still sing that song for the same reason: when I lack the words to pinpoint exactly what I’m feeling inside. The best realization though was when I realized that dag, it’s been a lonnnng time since I’ve sung that song out of pain. A long time since I squeezed it out to reach the heavens. A long time since all I had was a song to sing.
It’s one thing knowing your healed, but how sweet of God is it to take the time out to show you every now and again that you are and confirm that yup, you’re healed! And I’m not even talking about the type of confirmation that communicates it’s now safe to remove the bandages. Just the random ‘ol “by the way”, those bandages fell off. Yeaaaa, they stopped sticking a long time ago while you were moving forward (that’s probably why you didn’t notice).
Wow! I can’t thank him enough. It makes me wanna sing “I Love You Lord” all over again. It’s sweet. It’s loving. It’s warm. It’s romantically intimate. It’s simply a beautiful expression. For lack of a better example, It’s like singing “Cater To You” by Destiny’s Child to your man x 10 haha…that’s horrible, but you get it, right?
So I don’t know what you’re going through, but you can certainly make it with Jesus and you certainly cannot without Him. Whoever you are, I encourage you and recommend that you praise Him through your storm and after. Sometimes we bring storms upon ourselves, ya know. We won’t be still, we’re putting idols before God (money, people, sex, drugs, time, etc.) and God is a jealous God who like us, desires to be desired. And sadly, a lot of us only desire or reach out to him as a last resort or when in need and all those people we put before him are MIA.
If you’ve never loved him before, I encourage you to get to know him so that you can. He already knows and loves you. Remember, He’s a person. A relationship with Him (or anyone) is not gonna happen overnight. Try Him.
You can start the process my accepting Jesus Christ as your savior, praying and believing a prayer stating something like this:
“Father, I know that I have broken your laws and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.”
Best thing you could ever do. Promise.